Or I could be writing. Writing about falling under the spell of poetry years ago in Las Cruces, New Mexico at a poetry reading by William Stafford. The poems he read seemed to somehow both loosen the restraints upon what I thought a poem could be, as well as set a higher standard for the energy required for language to break through the barrier separating pragmatic discourse from art, and prose from poetry. One poem, in particular, spoke to the paradoxical ease and difficulty of stepping from one into the other of these parallel worlds--a poem entitled "Near."
Walking along in this not quite prose way,
we both know it is not quite prose we speak.
And it is time to notice the intolerable snow
innumerably touching before we sink.
It is time to notice, I say, the freezing snow
hesitating toward us from its gray heaven.
Listen! It is falling not quite silently,
and under it still you and I are walking.
Maybe there are trumpets in the houses we pass
or a red bird watching from an evergreen.
But nothing will happen till we pause to flame
what we know before any signal's given.
"Walking along in this not quite prose way/we both know it is not quite prose we speak," Stafford began, pointing to the apparent ease with which we can step from one path to the other. But then he zeros in on the clear elemental distinction between the malignant ice of complacency and the focused fire of liberation from mediocrity that is possible to create by contrasting the "intolerable snow...the freezing snow, hesitating toward us from its gray heaven" with the implied spark that we must "pause to flame" before anything truly creative will happen.
These penultimate and ultimate lines ("But nothing will happen till we pause to flame what we know/before any signal's given") really grabbed onto me, and I grabbed onto them by returning to my dormitory room and memorizing the entire poem. I continued to recite this poem during the next several years to provide the motivation to keep on writing no matter what was going on in my personal life.
To answer the question as to why I'm up at midnight writing this blog is that I'm tired of what's falling all around us, and if we ever have a hope of melting the glacial build-up, we must "pause to flame what we know before any signal's given."
Then let Stafford's poem flame what you know.
It's really pretty near isn't it?